vivian bl0ggie^^ baby you're mine.

2009年8月1日星期六 ♥

i dont want!! ♥ 07:45

很很很深..为什么??????????

这几天,

我想到了很多东

最近,

很多很多的回忆不断的在我脑海里闪来闪去

我不喜欢酱子的生活..

我不要!!

为什么天要酱叻?

我想要的他偏偏不给..

不想的就死命缠绕着!!

其实

我不是很想知道你每天在做什么咯..

不知道做么..

每次都有人告诉我~

我不喜欢看到你在我面前笑..

因为..

会给我感觉到在笑我..在炫耀..在给我知道你过的很快乐很自由自在..

可是,我知道事实上你不是..

但是,不懂做么就是说服不了自己..

不好意思~

我就是不爽..

我不喜欢羡慕.不喜欢妒嫉.也不喜欢幻想..

不要这些咯!!

不知不觉..

我

觉得

很辛苦

不知道这种情况要在我生活中维持几久?

几时才可以彻底的消失? ..

刚才进去房间

没有东西做..

就在里面呆了一下下

很无聊,

就找回以前的东西来看看..

才发现..

其实~

有一个橱我已经几个月没有打开了~

不想去动..

因为

里面有我不想去面对和不知道要怎样去处理它们的东西 ..

丢掉又不是,摆在那边又不是

所以我没有勇气去处理,

只好把它们藏在里面咯..

刚刚才鼓起勇气的把它打开

.. 原来

..我曾经有过这些..

卡,衣服,糖,巧克力..等等

坐在床上,

想了很久…

如果丢掉..

觉得很浪费咯..

不要酱啦~

所以

把它们整理好..

放进盒子里面,

藏在一个我不会时常注意到的地方

希望,

不会后悔

不是不会,是不可以..不能!!

还有,你..

不要对我酱好啦..

没有回报的..

对不起~

err,i do nt mean eu..

pls dun think so much ya..

thx

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2009年7月31日星期五 ♥

i'm not.. ♥ 07:54

hurt enough..

Can't you just stop hurting mii??

my parents bring mii to this world to enjoy life...

my heart is meant to pump blood..

Not meant to be hurt..

The fear of loneliness is still somewhere in maii heart

ii tried so hard to eliminate the fearbut is not strong enough

ii thought that ii won't feel that anymore but ii was wrong..

Whenever I still there,

sitting alone..or maybe

when ii was telling some other people about that,

*dong*

here comes the fear the sadnessthe feel of loneliness

ii may keep joking and laughing or maybe,

just smiling but who knows what's playing in maii mind at that time??

ii hopes that the moment of happiness will not end..

ii will not stop joking, laughing, smiling..

But the cruel reality disappoint mii..

ii stops not because ii’m tired

it's just simply because there's no one beside mii anymore..

Thus, ii’m trying damn hard to be independent

ii still trying hard now however,

no matter how hard ii tries,ii still feels lonely at times..

once ii said"euu are forever""

I said euu r, then you are...forever"

but how true it can be??

now ii gotta said..."

we are distanced"

ii’m very tired of trying to guess who is true and who is not

ii’m not observantshe can't differentiate truths or lies

ii doesn't know haw many big fat liars will appear in maii life

ii was tryna to be optimistic..

believing that there are someone ii can rely trust and rely on..

ii found some but still doubting

...still doubting...

2009年7月30日星期四 ♥

maii words ♥ 20:02

i'm back..

have you ever thought of going back to the past to make that one change that

you've always been wanting to change?

what do you think about knowing too much will cause you more trouble than

you can ever think of? what about just accepting the fact that things

might happen for the better reason? whatabout knowing that

there might be even better things that will become of?

sometimes i think i make too much promises. even when deep inside me

i know it's most likely to be possible. i guess what i'm trying to do is to

convince myself that, doesn't matter how naive and simple i see things as,

nothing is impossible. perhaps, i might not achieve anything from

the promises i've made in the end but at least i know,

i try to make it happen

if you can go back in time to change somethings that might or

might not make things better, or otherwise. it made me realized

that sometimes, things happens for a reason. we often think

that if only i could turn back time and correct my mistakes,

thing would've been better. but if you think about it, things

happen for a reason and i'm pretty sure it'd be better to just

leave it as it is. this is because once you try to alter things

that has happened for a reason it might become worse.

so maybe that's why until today time machine is still yet

to be developed. the irony of life.

free from all that i've seen but that would mean i've learned nothing hence

learning from the truth makes one even stronger though it hurts like hell there

fore i want to recieve freedom even more.

kudos

tis is all maii feeling..

mwax

2009年7月2日星期四 ♥

genting trip ♥ 03:16

atlast upload my picha le..
haha~
so long didt update..
coz...
exam><
bt...
nw,finish le lorh..
last 2 week went to genting take d picha~

pub^^

saw us?

nurhhh...tat last row 3sapo

tasty..

green tea..i lik(veli exp)><

Highland Hotel

after outdoor..around9p.m

went to 1st world "tong lo wan"

dinner..

our turn..waiting to ply the sportcar..

b4 wear the helmet nid wear tis..

funny lo...

new law r..??
wahaha

2009年6月12日星期五 ♥

hurt..haha ♥ 11:54

tis is after roller get d hurt..
so charm...

bt i will go 4 2nd time..
coz its reli fun^^

♥

time square ♥ 11:11

10th june

went to t.s n sg.wang^^

11 reach there..

waiting some1 make da digi card..

v nth to do thn stand at there..

looking down there..

hv 3 sportcar nerh..

yeng dou..

after tat go gasoline take our lunch..
choose le so long..
i mean him..
nt me..
omg...he duno wad he want to eat....
so..
choose lo...
c so long lo the menu..
haha..
i'm helping him to choose 2..

eat finish le..

go sg.wang..

walk til half..

almost want reach le..

he tot i reli duno how to go sg.wang..

wahaha..i bluff him...

thn

he said..

"nw i bring u bak 2 t.s..

thn u bring me go sg.wang la..

if u can bring me go sg.wang d..

i owe u a meal..''

hahahah..ok ON..

thn he bring me bak ts..

at 1st floor go til 6th floor...

somr keep bring mii long here long there..

make til mii gt abit confused tim..

bt atlast..

also find til way go sg.wang..

used almost 20min++

waste time oli..

bt funny..

haha...

very lame lo..

go sg.wang..

roller...

RM20 per person..

1st time go....

duno hw to ply...

scare...

thn waiting him to teach...

haha...

atlast know hw to ply le...

bt....also keep p.k la..

dunid worry..

gt ppl will hold u up d^^

haha..very fun....

roller didt pk whr like roller ..(my sis say d)

err...3somethg go out le...

go bak ts again...

thn....

gt somethg very weird happend

n...

very funny also+paiseh

wahaha...

dont want tell u all..

haha...

jk la..

secret^^

♥

cameron highland ♥ 10:13

6th june

wahaha...so long didt update blog le..

6th of june..

i went to cameron..

2days1night..

5a.m wake up..

5.40 go out^^

so early hor..

coz they said holiday..

if late thn traffic jam..

almost whole relative r goin(dad side)..

suang^^

9 family..9 car..

so..keep stop stop n stop..

1 car follow 1 car..

hahxx..bt i lik tis feel..

very cooperate..

10somethg reach there..

take our lunch le...

thn rest awhile....

12somethg continue our plan..

walk walk walk shop shop shop n take photo..

dont lik cameron..

coz...veli bored=.=

at there nth to do..

bt hor..

there very cold..

went to strawberry farm

at nite ply card(true or dare)

after tat 11 lyktat walk go down..

nth do..so sien..

thn go long gai lo...

lucky maii biao ge gt follow..

if nt v all cant go out..

coz very late le..

dangerous..

eat supper..

thn bak...

1a.m continue ply card..

v keep laugh..

thn aunt come out

col us (SHHHH)

thn v said okok...

bt...also same...

laugh dao cant stop..

beh tahan...

haha....

all slp tgt..

simply slp..didt care...

duno 3 o 4a.m oli slp..

thn 10 wake up...

thn thn thn...

duno want write wad le..

buy alot strawberry^^

stop here..

maiiw0rld~vivian ♥

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A very random & hyper girl who
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Tied down to Band & was assigned
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(they're way too cute!)

Editing & creating blogskins
are part of her favourites.

Shopping sprees

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Camwhoring
or
when she has nothing to do at home.

Tootys & Buaybahs
are the beloved families of hers.

Dark Chocolates
is her choice chocolate.
More bitterness, less sweetness please (:

Beloved Darling
He's of course, who i love.
More sweetness for this please (:
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Yearns ♥

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